So I started to think more and more.
Everyone has gone through rough times before. I am looking towards a brighter future.
This is part of life, the experiences whether it be good or bad. The fact is, you must have both in order to achieve equilibrium.
What’s equilibrium? Equilibrium is a state of rest or balance due to the equal action of opposing forces. What’s opposing forces? Does that mean opposite sides? How does that work? I dont know. It is such a strong and beautiful word.
My world is a bit off-centered. I don’t know what’s going on, but I think its time to balance things out.
I have seen myself grown up just past year. I’m more aware, confident, and I know what I want now. I’m starting to open up parts of my brain I never knew existed. Through music and reading.
I love trance.
Trance is so classy. I represent myself accordingly. I can’t find any other word that would best describe it. You can find yourself listening to trance, your ups and downs. Sometimes I’m driving and I hear this one song, I’m sure to bust into tears. Or I start to recall a good memory, and I can remember who was around me, what we were doing and how I was feeling, and it’s so real and you can feel yourself get all excited.
Same thing with writing. This is just a freewrite, whatever is coming into my head right now as I type. I think its wonderful because you are documenting everything you are thinking. To be able to read or hear yourself think. I talk to myself alot, you just don’t want to let a good idea go you know? It’s good to think. Positive of course.
But you know, its not the end. Right now I may think it is, but this is part of learning and I recognize that. My life is just beginning and there is so much out there for me to see. I’m blessed because I’m not afraid to do things alone. This did not come naturally, it’s a learned process….a memory I can never forget. My trip to China, would be the ultimate high of my life.
But I shouldn’t say that too soon, because I am only 23! I plan to travel and live to many different places. I want to be a journalist and just write about my life day to day. Everyday I got to do one thing different. That starts today.
I am in no rush. Just one thing different and it will change my life completely. It’s like going down a path less traveled.
I feel good right now.
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