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Me, Be Thankful?

Is anyone thankful this year? I really need you to think about this for a moment, but before you do…I need share my thought for those who may be reading this.

LIFE is like driving in traffic.

Some of us try to weave in and out of the lanes. Stop and go, braking and gasing. Usually trying to get ahead of everyone else or maybe simply acting out on boredom.

Others like me who uses this time to zone out and listen to music, actually kind of enjoy traffic. Never really needing to step on the brake. Ever-so-slowly creep along the pavement to avoid stopping at all. However, this doesn’t always work out does it? There are times where we must brake to avoid crashing into the vehicle in front of us.

Once that happens, we must start all over! Going out of our way to leave “somewhat” of a good distance of space, so that the rolling may continue. Usually the person behind us or even to the side don’t really understand our motives, so they switch lanes just to cut us off or fill in the space. Can’t really blame them since the majority of the people living in this world has the “me, me ,me” mentality. While others believe in team work.

It’s like, “Dude…I’m trying to get the traffic at a constant flow and now you just fucked it all up.” Can you dig what I’m saying?

What am I really trying to say…I don’t even know lol. I guess what I’m trying to say is that I sat here tonight and thought about this really hard. Everyone is so unique and we each have different priorities, principles and morality. The people that surrounds you, the enviroment you are in, the energy that you receive. Does anyone have a clue just how small or big the impact is when our worlds collide?

I’m just a young woman trying to survive in this cruel world. It’s hard enough that as I slowly proceed forward with my life, some asshole or not-so-lady-like people come and ruin things for me! It’s difficult for people around to really understand. Because when it really comes down to it, the only person who can understand you is yourself. But I have my own plan of action, my own chain of command. I want team work damnit, we should all be taking care of each other. So why the fuck are we not? I don’t really understand.

Some douche bag or bagette opened my eyes up to a ugly world. At the same time, I realized that I accidently closed my eyes to seeing the good. How am I going to let one or two people ruin that for me?

Who ever coined the term “out of this world” was really talking about energy level. It can be in any form. People, music, object. Somtimes I meet people who are just absolutely amazing and breath taking and I think to myself, “Wow…you are seriously amazing, you must not be from around here.”Sometimes I listen to a track and I think to myself, “Wow…this track took me to a differenct place, I couldn’t fight it off if I wanted to.” Often times, it’s your mood or feelings that create this energy.

All in all, what this little brain of mine is trying to say is…be thankful for the ups and downs. I use to think I was superhuman. That nothing can make me sad, but I later on realized through many trials and tribulation that I am only human. It shocked me to think that I can ever feel this much pain or even begin questioning who I am and what am I doing here.

Sure, it’s been a tough year for me, and I had more downs than ups. But now, I can learn to appreciate the bigger and brighter things that will fall into my life.

SOMETIMES, GOOD THINGS FALL APART…SO THAT BETTER THINGS CAN FALL TOGETHER.

THANKSGIVING isn’t as cliche as everyone thinks.

This is what I’m thankful for this year…besides the obvious like family and friends.

In this specific order…however may change in the future.

Life, Soul, Mind, Heart, Body, All my senses, Music, DJs, All forms of Electronic Dance Music, Rock and Emo Music, Music in general, Internet, Ipod, Blogging, Biking, Photography, Good food, Instant Messaging, Text messaging, A good read, MJ, My new career.

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Radioheads: Exit Music (for Donnie Darko)

Not only do I love Donnie Darko, but I love this mix with Radioheads “Exit Music”

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Dummy

I am very close, but as quickly as I fall…I will regain my balance and get back up!

I’m making a promise to myself…to jump off this emotional roller coaster.

I think it’s the birth control pills that are doing this to me…

However I’m not going to continue making excuses nor let anyone take advantage of me.

I am too compassionate for my own good…

I will start to weave out the people who deserve to be loved and cared. Everyone deserves it, but some people abuse the shit out of it …and I would be a dummy to sit around and let that happen.

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Happy Anniversary: Halloween: 6 Years

Happy Halloween.

It happened 6 years ago. 2002, I was 18. I won a $2 scratcher worth $7,777. It was my first time playing, but my second time buying.

I will never forget this day. I sat in my car for about half an hour and realized that I was a very lucky girl.

I have not spent one damn red cent. 

I met up with Kevin, Tim, and Wes…Kevin was there 6 years ago when I won it. It was really different back then, because I was scared of him. Who would have thought that we would be such great friends today. I had broken out of my shell since then…I am quite a piece of work.

I miss the garage days when we would just all chill out and life was good. Seeing Kevin really changed my perspective on life and the direction we take to get to the places we need to go…I really don’t know why he still talks to me when the whole time he has been trying so hard to get close and I blow him off, not intentionally but because I have my own problems to deal with. He really is a great friend, and I’m afraid to lose that.

I just want to see him the way he was 6 years ago, when I thought he was just a happy crazy scary guy. I don’t want to see him in the slumps…and I hope he figures that out sooner than later.

The boys will always have my back…

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The Beginning

My name means “strength to overcome difficulties”.

I started this blog today, in hopes of finding myself.

I am documenting the ups and downs, the beautiful and ugly.

I no longer need people to validate who I am.

I want to see myself progress…

 10/5/2007

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